Day 26 Think back to how you were 5 years ago. How have you changed since then?
So 5 years ago...I was the beautiful age of 16. I couldn't see beyond the world that I had created for myself. School was good. Friends were good. Life was good. I looked forward to everything. Nothing bad happened. I was judgmental. I just wanted to be normal. And I couldn't wait for dances to happen. Or for dates to arrive.
I am now 21 and I see the world for what it is. A sometimes scary place with beautiful people. School is still good. Friends are amazing. Life. Is. Good. I look forward to everything. Bad things happen. But I learned to roll with the punches. The bad is what makes the good so, good. I have learned to love people for who they are. Nothing more, nothing less. That has made me realize how genuine people are. It's a beautiful thing. I'm not normal. By any means. I am special. I am different. I am Lisha. And now I don't wait for dances. Dances wait for me.
I haven't written a poem this whole blog challenge...so I thought I'd take a chance. Since it's my blog anyway, yeah?
I miss the summer drives that lasted just long enough.
The singing at the top of our lungs.
The new songs I learned because of you.
The hands that would hold mine. The inside jokes.
And the heart to heart to hearts we would have.
I miss the scary movie nights.
The goodbyes at the door.
The random "I love yous".
I miss you.
And I'll never get that back.
I had an extremely busy day today. I felt like I haven't had a chance to sit down until right now. And it's 12:04 am. But it was wonderful. Let's see if I can remember.
6:30 Got up and ready for my day
7:45 Picked up Scott for our first day of training
8:00 am-1:00pm Training at Sorensons!
1:15 had a sandwich
1:40 Took Scott's Birthday Cakes to Bethany's house for secret surprise partay.
2:00 Went and did registration stuff for my car
2:15 Went to Dollar Store for random party things
2:30 to Walmart
3:00 Gave Scott his birthday Card from his parental units
3:30 Went with Scott to check his mail and such
4:00 Came home and got ready for his secret surprise extravaganza! (Watched a little Dawson's Creek)
6:40 Went to get Scott for his super secret surprise gala!
7:00 Went to Wellington for Dinner....surprising SCOTT!
8:00 Went to park for cake and ice cream
9:30 Went to Game Hub
10:00 Went to the Woodruff's
11:00 Went to Walmart
11:30 Waited in a LONG Line at McDonald's and blasted Celine, Natasha, and Justin. (Dion, Bedingfield, Beiber)
12:00 Got into pajamas. Got in Bed. Started Blogging.
This is me at the beach. I would have to say that something that makes me the most happy is the sand and sunshine. Hopefully that is followed by a DisneyLand trip. There are very few things better than DisneyLand.
If you want, you can click the link above and listen to this beauty of a song while you read my explanation. (I strongly suggest that you do.)
Big Girl You Are Beautiful. I'm a big girl. With curves. With pretty eyes. And pair of pretty awesome....legs. ;) I own it. I never claim to want to be a size 2 because that's not who I am. I am Lisha. I am beautiful. And people aren't perfect, this I know. And we never will be. And honestly, I made this my blog name because I love the song. I love the message it gives. But I really love that it doesn't say "Big Girl You Are Beautiful On The Inside". Because as a larger member of society I'm so SICK AND TIRED of people saying "It's what's on the inside that counts". Yeah, sure it counts. But that's not what people SEE. I think everyone on this planet has the right and divine potential to feel pretty. To feel wanted. To feel sexy. To feel lovely. To....feel. And that's what I want. I want people to know that. I want people to feel. Feel something for themselves that they never thought was possible.