Monday, November 3, 2008


So I was thinking today about the rest of my life. What do I want? What do I strive for? It made me realize it's really simple. What I want is to be remembered. Not really famous, but I want to be that person that when people think of me they smile. They are glad that they knew me. I want to make a difference for the better in the world. I want to be a fighter, a lover, a person of value and honor. I want to be with someone forever. I'm not sure that I believe in soul mates, but I believe in finding love. Finding that person that you can't live without. That one person that you love so much it hurts. The one person that when they go away on a business trip or something, you can't sleep without them next to you.
I want to be a makeup artist. I want to create art, I want to make people feel beautiful because of what I do. I want to be one with color and texture, to breathe movement and emotion. I want love.

Friday, October 10, 2008


Have you ever just had a really crappy day? I mean everything goes wrong, you want to punch a wall, and just hide from everyone? Well folks that was today. I didn't feel so good and everything everyone was saying was just making me feel irritated. It's funny though, how the people you love change everything around. Tonight I just hung with my really good friends and my mood changed immeditately. I felt renewed and blessed to have such great people in my life.


Wednesday, October 8, 2008


Why is it okay to string someone along? Why is alright for me to take it? I mean I hate people who say one thing and do another! Who said that was okay? I'm not a door mat...
For the future, be real with me. You know exactly who you are! Don't mess with me. Just tell me straight to my face. Be real. It's better this way. No false pretences, just the cold hard facts. Don't be afraid of hurting my feelings because honestly I will get over it. The longer your string me along is the longer I follow you. The longer I will be hurt in the long run. The longer crying sessions that I will have to endure to get you out of my head. So it. Just tell me now!