I miss you

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes.

Especially this month because here's where,

you left.

And I can't explain it, because I barely new you.

But I've seen pictures.

Pictures of you.

Pictures of me.

Pictures of you holding me.

I've heard wonderful stories. Amazing stories

of you being a wonderful mother. A wonderful grandmother.

And I can't help but miss you.

I miss you.

I love you.

And I know you're watching over me everyday. And still....

I can't help but

miss you.

I know

I know I wasn't the hardest hit.

And I know my side isn't even

scratched.

But I still felt it. That abrupt ending.

The sadness of the contact.

But I know I wasn't the only one.

And I won't ever be.

And that's nice that I don't have to be alone.

And it's nice that I can see the scratches and stains

and hurt parts. It's nice that they can see mine too.

I know that for certain.

I definitely know.

As of late

As of late my life has been pretty hectic! Who knew the life of a stage manager was so crazy!!!! I've realized some things about myself in this whole process.

1. I never gave my previous stage managers enough credit.

2. I can't wait to get back ON stage.

3. I love the theater even more than I knew....

This show has tried my patience and my sanity, but I have come to love it. I'm ready for something new though. Something that challenges me in a new way.

In other news, I have the best friends in the world!!! I totes

got surprised on Saturday by My Michael and The Sterling!!! Best surprise ever :) They mean the world to me and I'm so stoked they got to see the show! AND ME!

Or maybe the best surprise was the Double Double burger from In-N-Out waiting on my doorstep as I got home.... ;)

Food For thought....